Select Paintings + JOURNAL 2024 Edition
I was after what I couldn't find at work or in what people call the inner life: the buzz from a certain excess.
Roberto Bolaño (1953 - 2003)
JOURNAL Fall 2024 | This afternoon, I was reflecting on Concrete Buildings with exposed plank formwork. Over a decade ago, when I was living in San Diego, Jonathan Segel and Sebastian Mariscal turned me on to concrete buildings with weathered corten steel panels — that vibe never left me!
No doubt I visualize my paintings in these residences at moments while in the studio painting; Sous le Soleil 04 shown above in particular!
I love color as gestural energy (stimulates me on an instinctual, personal level); when you contrast visceral agitation with order (minimal design) + permanence (concrete with wood plank formwork) — a potent sensation penetrates your visual cortex! Good times!
Luciano Kruk based in Argentina is one of the leading figures of concrete construction for single-family residential; an exceptional, impressive portfolio of built work, below is one of his residences currently under construction, highly recommend perusing his work.
We need to redefine the parameters of success going forward: absolutely critical — shift from [material + power] to [elemental + intellectual].
Cheers to Liberated Souls!
/MP
JOURNAL Summer 2024 | Highly recommend listening to this series of talks on headphones as a focused activity, not while walking or doing anything but as a private solo sit down meditation: Urgency of Change - The Krishnamurti Podcast | Krishnamurti on Space - June 19, 2024.
Space without an object is freedom.
Jiddu Krishnamurti (1895 - 1986)
FEATURE Summer 2024 | Painting
When I go into my North Miami Beach Studio to paint, I just rely on what I see — spontaneous gestural movements — because it all happens very fast, no doubt in a trance.
I’ve been asked by friends: do you listen to music when you paint? No, you wouldn’t hear it anyway; painting for me is a close both eyes to see with your third eye (sub-conscious) type of ephemeral state. When I go into the Studio, I don’t fuck around. I go in, make a painting and walk out — a low volume endeavor despite having a permanent working studio. By the way, it’s always while sober because I drink to relax, I don’t paint to take it easy!
When I first started painting, it was 2014 and I had ended up in Denver with the intention of deciding to live there after over a decade in Southern California (LA & San Diego) — family lives there. I leased a dedicated Art Studio space in a warehouse for 6 months in RiNo (River North) to explore painting. It was a brutal EXP to walk into an empty industrial space in the morning, cold and start painting.
That was the impetus for my previous long running Tumblr blog — JOURNAL by Marc Pakbaz (June 2014 - April 2023). I would read poetry, philosophy & literature excerpts, look at stimulating photography as a warm-up before painting. Joyous moments were had but overall it was not enjoyable, it was only after I went with my current Live/Work setup in North Miami Beach and dropped off any commercial necessity that it all opened up, became meaningful, personal — visceral.
Inexplicable to talk about it: over time, painting becomes both about intimacy + intellectual honesty. How so? You’re sharing a language from within, an energy you’ve spent years working on. If you’re an intense person at the core, it’s going to reveal itself; intellectual honesty comes into play because for me, I see no separation between living a life as a painter with living a life as an intellectual, broadly the same endeavor of living as a pure being.
So fast forward now to nearly a decade of painting and I have a vey distilled approach — purely about potent gestural energy. I no longer labor on canvases for days, layering, subtracting and so on, I go head first so to speak and the result is pure gestural moves on raw canvas (priming the reverse side). I stand by the work, a language that’s taken me a long time to develop.
FEATURE Spring 2024
Wet Skin | Fresh Eyes Let’s Get Lost in Slow Living
Photo of Peter Beard, Montauk Pt. (1979) by Larry Fink in Whitney Museum Collection
Incredible, the dream!
Henry: it’s so quiet today, and the sea so blue, and now the garden wall is built ...
Drop everything and leave someone in charge of your mail. Just wrap [Tropic of] Capricorn in a red wool shawl and bring your portable [typewriter] along with you.
I can give you a deep cool room with two windows over the sea, bright rugs on the floor, a desk and some books, an encyclopedia and a dictionary. Bring a woman too with you; that would make it an even keel for the days which come and go silently.
We could sail and bathe in the mornings, have a fine sunny lunch with wine; then a long afternoon siesta; bathe before tea and then four hours work in a slow rich evening.
/Lawrence Durrell (Excerpt from a letter to Henry Miller circa July 1938) (The Durrell- Miller Letters: 1935-1980)
I was turned on to Lawrence Durrell (1912-1990) by way of Henry Miller (1891-1980) as I purchased a used copy of The Durrell-Miller Letters: 1935-1980 from Amazon to gain greater intimacy with Miller’s work.
Durrell befriended Miller after expressing admiration for Tropic of Cancer (1931) and that kicked off their relationship. Reading the letters is like a fantasy: two brilliant intellectuals with a sense of humor and mastery of the art of living at their peak exchanging narratives and life observations — cool, dreamy stuff as they no doubt both enjoy getting into it. I don’t recommend reading the letters in any chronological order because I find it more potent to just open the book and read 4 or 5 pages to get a taste — hear the voice — rather than focusing on following a linear chronology.
Durrell is a true master of slow living in my view, in particular the time he lived on the island of Corfu in Greece as well as Cyprus. Durrell wasn’t piss poor but lived cheaply and simply while still fully indulging in sensory pleasure and intellectual stimulation in context of slow living — a role model of sorts! Even more so today because it’s now more of a possibility to drop out.
Bit of a tangent here but people don’t realize and this is a critical contextual point for a better understanding of art history: real estate development did not exist in the sense of what we know today until the late 1970’s and later boomed in the 1980”s due to the introduction of securitization (pooling loans and selling them as income to investors), that innovation started a massive lending industry and began gentrification. So before then, artists in the early 1900’s (Picasso & Modigliani) up to the late 1970’s were able to live with very little money because a lot of areas were run down, neglected or even straight up abandoned (industrial buildings) with no capital or credit even being available for improvements.
In extreme contrast to today, where every inch of land is heavily scrutinized by real estate developers for potential to make money and the profile of a developer is now super-broad from small players (literally one person shops) to hedge funds and institutions.
/MP
Prelude to slow living, turn it up!
I rolled a cigarette and licked the paper.
Then a match in the little house of my hand. The wind was blowing.
I sat on the road at noon,
Thinking and thinking.
So many things have passed, so many things.
/Czeslaw Milosz (1911-2004) (Insanity - New and Collected Poems: 1931 - 2001)
JOURNAL Spring 2024 | Discovered a lovely furnished villa rental in Portugal — Casa da Volta — 1.5 hour drive outside of Lisbon, 30 minutes to the beaches of Alentejo.
Minimal design, low maintenance, economical footprint, designed to endure, the vistas look lovely with hillsides scattered with cork trees, very keen to visit small town Portugal as I’m in complete agreement with the operating philosophy of Casa da Volta.
I love living in Miami Beach but if the opportunity presents itself years from now, I want to live in a more remote area that’s beautiful of course! This area is a good place to start exploring in Portugal!
SOUTH FLORIDA ACCESSORY DWELLING UNIT (ADU)
If you live in a residential single family home in South Florida with a good size backyard (most pre-2000 subdivisions qualify as newer subdivisions are more compact) and are not encumbered by any HOA restrictions of a gated community adjoining a golf course, then a brilliant move is to build an Accessory Dwelling Unit (ADU).
Current advances in design/build allow for rapid, affordable buildouts in a very compact footprint; it's all about having an intelligent layout customized for how you use the space.
Your ADU can be used as a guest suite for visiting friends or relatives, an income generating seasonal Airbnb or a home office — also a party pad if you have college age kids!
Phenomenal ROI as both investment and experiential outcome — will be wildly popular! I’m a huge fan and strongly advocate for ADU’s for those who own a single family residence.
Drop me a line at marcpakbaz@gmail.com for a free initial consultation. As a first step, I will research the local feasibility to determine what is allowable with detailed specificity at no cost to you based on location of parcel. ADU’s are permissible as detached or attached.
I converted a North Miami Beach ground floor 825 SF 1 Bedroom/1 Bath in a 3 Story (24-Unit) Condo into a permanent Live/Work Art Studio.
My living room is west-exposure so I get wonderful clear light in the mornings, sun-splashed afternoons at lunch time followed by a full-blast Sunset Happy Hour directly on the intra-coastal.
I believe in minimal living for myself, not imposed on others because it’s entirely situational what is deemed minimal. Why? Lower your cost of living is, the less dependency you have thereby more flexibility — optimal setup for living a high-quality life!
Go further: if you have good taste and an instinctual sense for the art of living, then you don’t need a lot of money, instead focus on the elemental life: fresh air, good view, art, photography, literature, poetry, beach hikes, food & wine/beer, laughing, dancing, good sex and so on. At some point, you realize once you reach a certain minimal elemental level, then no limits exist for moments of bliss or ecstasy.
HOME TOUR | MARC PAKBAZ
FEATURE Spring 2024
Greynolds Park in North Miami Beach is one of my local go to bike rides: exhilarating to be surrounded by tall old-growth trees with lush, deep outgrowths of tropical plants.
Epic nature vibes: walking along the mangroves on my most recent ride, I suddenly became vividly aware of the oxygen-rich fresh air, of living at sea-level, so much photosynthesis in wetland forests! For me, the atmospherics of the EXP resonates even days later.
Wet Skin | Fresh Eyes Fresh Air at Sea-level
Sous le Soleil 01
Oil on Canvas | H 60 in x W 48 in Marc Pakbaz
Sous le Soleil translates to under the sun; I realized in a series, what I see from days spent letting go, being liberated under the sun — what I live for!
Sous le Soleil 03
Oil on Canvas | H 60 in x W 48 in Marc Pakbaz
When I say: I’ve lived with my paintings, the reason that’s relevant is that your day to day EXP begins to develop an interplay with your peripheral awareness.
I moved Sous le Soleil 03 to my feature spot in my living room last week and now I’m living with it!
When I got back from my lunch trip on Friday, I poured a glass of wine and all the lovely views of the ocean from earlier saturated my headspace/consciousness while I’m sitting next to my painting — a magical vibe!
This is why I offer OPEN STUDIO VISITS by APPOINTMENT: potent beauty of the ocean & lush dunes in Miami plus the atmospherics of living by the beach, when you bring that flow home, then EXP the energy of the paintings, it puts you in an elevated state — something you need to EXP in-person.
dog beach torrey pines
Oil on Canvas + pigment/charcoal sticks | H 60 in x W 48 in Marc Pakbaz
Ocean Dog Beach is a dog park in Torrey Pines. I took pigment/charcoal sticks to an existing oil painting of mine. This is something I’ve been getting into lately: taking a highlight moment in my life and then in the moment hitting the canvas with sticks.
As I get older, I’m increasingly fascinated by this self-inquiry: what do you still remember vividly? What moments do you see as foundational (core) — what enduring residue informs your experiential capacity — that’s critical for crafting an EXP.
Here’s a poem I wrote in my JOURNAL a few years ago about Ocean Dog Beach:
‘Alone Together’
by Chet Baker & Bill Evans is playing.
somewhat rare drizzle of rain
wet black pavement —
we are driving
to ocean dog beach in Torrey Pines.
your black lab is released
into the frenzied motion
(around 10-15 dogs out playing).
it’s exhilarating to take in the vibe —
crashing surf, massive rocky cliffs
warm, loving energy of dogs
plus the light spray of salt water
that gets in your eyes.
/MP (salt water in your eyes - August 19, 2021)
oceans in between us
Oil on Canvas | H 60 in x W 48 in Marc Pakbaz Spring 2024
Shown in North Miami Beach Studio
JOURNAL Summer 2024 | One more, ‘Uno Mas’ as they say: I took pigment/charcoal sticks to an existing oil painting of mine! Boulder 1990 was when I was 19, sophomore year at CU Boulder — and the rest? Purely spontaneous musings/memories from ski trips (triple diamond) : a highlight period of my life!
You must love in such a way that the person you love feels free.
Thich Nhất Hạnh (1926 - 2022)